Down

Going up is tiring, requires more effort, but gives a nice feeling, Then you're high, and look at the world with the eyes of the alpinist. Going down is fun, you get fast, no effort. You only need a lot of concentration and that state-of-mind of being ultra-awake. I'm down, but there's no fun in it, only being tired. I've worked 70 hours this week, and last weekend was a day shorter, again because of work. Things went well, and others not, but I feel exausted. Also because coming home I found my car bumper damaged. It's a stupid thing, but gets me upset. And because it is cold in here, summer has already ended this year - and there's no light, too many clouds, and they look at me, with anger and repulsion. They shower me if I'm biking, and retreat when I am at office. I'm down today. Too many work buffets, with tasteless food and meaningless words; too many phone calls, and meetings and smiles - never the one I want. I'm down because my father has cancer, which I have learned yesterday, and it looks really bad. Please leave your pity in the comment repository.